brick-of-wall kind of heart

Assalamualaikum ,

friend is said someone who is always be with you . friendship is said to always be the biggest treasure . but when one felt a huge backstab from a friend they used to trust , would there be any value of friendship again ? 

haih Ya memang dah biasa kena sebenarnya . since Ya dari asrama lagi . tapi Ya tak expect dia boleh buat macam tu dekat Ya . i mean she looks nice , sweet , cakap pun lembut . tapi mengutuk Ya dari belakang rupanya . hahahaha lesson learnt , jangan judge orang from the first impression anymore . 

or maybe im the type of person who prefers to sit and discuss . bukan ke kalau ada yang tak puas hati ke apa , cakap la depan depan , at least Ya dapat tau what people think of me , kekurangan Ya and fix what should be fixed , bukannya Ya dengar dari mulut orang lain you said this and that tak puas hati dengan Ya ! orang cakap 'sebenarnya korang each other tak puas hati sesama sendiri  tau' well i guess nope . ya tak sakit hati dengan dia . more to dissaponted ? yes . and even things i told her pun dia pergi bagitau orang lain . but thank you finally i know you cant be trusted , cerita about kawan kita yang lain pun kau bukak dekat kami . im wrong , what did i expect kan hahaha . 

things changed . banyak gila benda Ya terasa dengan dia . but i keep in silence. sebab Ya tau dia jenis sensitive gila , kena tegur sikit pun dah merajuk , ni kalau Ya gertak ni entah entah putus kawan terus kot hahaha . buruk baik dia pun ada jugak benda yang dia dah tolong , in attempt to be positive , even the good thing she had done to me is little bit less than the bad thing she did , i need to find a point for me to appreciate her right ? good or bad she was once my good friend .

it hurts everytime you got cheated on , fuh rasa sedih tu tebal gila kot . but life goes on kan , buat apa tunggu dekat negative point in your life when you know Allah set a beautiful rainbow for you ahead ? ya harap sangat yang Darwisyah tu tak buat macam ni pulak dekat ya . more or less , hopes tu ada but in chance of getting dissapoinment tu Ya dah ready la . hati macam dah banyak kali dilatih untuk terima semua pengkhianatan dari orang yang tak disangka sangka . since i was small kid lagi . heh . for me to wait nak tunggu kau explain why did you do that , sampai bila pun tak settle . pretending like you have never crushed someones trust you prefer . so ya pun tak la nak cakap macam macam dengan kau lagi . takde lah nak bergurau kelakar lagi . ya buat hal ya . kau buat hal kau .

lantak kau la hal kau . malas Ya nak semakkan kepala otak dengan semua yang kau dah buat . go ahead . nobody cares pun kan .

-beya-