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Assalamualaikum semua halo

im in the car, thinking, and contemplating.
i want to take a break, dont feel like going to work, just feel like writing... 
im sad ☹️ sad because im tired. and i have no one to talk to. i know my friends are around. but i dont have the vibe to socialise with people now. i know if they ask me how am i doing, im embarrassed to tell them that im tired. so i’ll just say im doing ok. struggling but ok. plus i feel like a burden to them already. 

wouldnt it be nice to have someone who eagerly waiting for you to get home. waiting for you to settle for the day and talk about your day. to have someone whom you can complaint being tired to, fatigue body and pening kepala. i feel like talking to him but hes always with his game. even if im talking, i feel like his focus is somewhere else. even if he asked me about my day, i feel like he’s asking just to carry on a conversation, not because he really cares or he really wants to know. you can feel someone isnt excited talking to you, bila online-off-online-off whatsapp. i guess everyone have better things to do than listening to you. they have something more entertaining than paying attention to you.

game > you. 

i bottled everything up. im tired. sometimes i dont want to reach people so i just sleep. and waking up sad again. the cycle goes around like that for days. 

bye im gonna go work now.

a sad girl, 
Laila Rafaee,
1:59PM
depan mainplace subang mall.

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