Dear Readers, #HappyNewYear2021

Assalamualaikum and hi!

Looking back, I feel a wee bit unpleasant for the fact that my first post of 2021 happened to be... the negative one? LOL but its all water under the bridge now, and I encounter a lot of nice people after the incident. I gained new friends too! Frankly speaking, it feels a bit awkward since I rarely interact with strangers, the people I never talked to. I was too comfortable with my chosen circle, my Instagram friends. Dont get me wrong, I am never an introvert, I talk a lot, but only in real life, not on social media. I tend to pull myself back because I just dont have the courage to talk to people online. Kind of different with most of the people huh? Keyboard warriors are so loud online, but if you were to meet them in real life, they hushed.

But now that I have started to talk to some complete strangers, and they are not that scary! Grateful that there are still kind souls on earth. 

If you couldnt find one, then be one <3

Anyways, I just want to express my feelings, I havent been writing blog for so long, (#SiBodohKauDengarSini post didnt count okay, that was supposed to be vented on Twitter but I just didnt wish to prolong the internet fight) so yea this is considered my first post this year!!

I dont know who reads this, but I cant deny that my Blog readers had 📈📈📈 SO MUCH up to 700 readers today. Might be a small number to you, but since this used to be my own and alone place, with only 20 readers (before), 700 is a huge number 😳😳😳 I also received sweet notes from internet friends, specifically Twitter (where it all began) that they like to read my Blog... and some asked me to continue writing because they love my English, trust me when I say I still make flaws and grammatical mistakes but THANK YOU??!?😭😭😭 Im overwhelmed because usually I received such compliments only from my circle of friends but to receive it from people I barely know AAAA (im literally screaming) 

uHmm 👉🏼👈🏼🥺 Im shy but thank you for your time to read my... I dont know what to call it because I literally just rant wholeheartedly here. 

Its February 2021 and I am currently on my Final Exam for my 6th Semester 📚 This is my most important semester of this degree because UiTM law school required us students to pass all our subjects throughout 3 years first, before we could enroll in our 4th and final year 🥵😰 Im feeling anxious but Alhamdulillah I made it this far, I just hope that I dont flunk any paper this semester or else I will have to extend one semester just for it, and I cant be in the same batch with my batchmates, most importantly with Seth (my brother) and best friends 🥺🥺🥺

To you who read this, please keep me in your prayer. I hope that my next post is going to be me telling you that I pass my 6th semester 🤲🏼💙

Just to keep this blog updated, I have quit my Tealive part time job, after 1 year and 6 months of juggling work and study. Now I am working also as a part-timer at Nandos! With better pay Alhamdulillah but I plan to work only to fill my semester break. Once I got into my final year (Inshaa Allah), I dont want to work anymore, I will just focus on finishing my degree then. I kinda hope that we got to go to physical class, I mean, I want to finish off this degree and having law firm with my best friends and real life people, not behind my screen 😩😩 But its okay Laila, He knows best.

Take care everyone, lets all play our part to fight this pandemic, since our government cant do it. 5000+ cases per day, its alarming. But we kinda got used to it, since this MCO isnt as strict as the first one and people are taking it lightly. I wish that one day I can go out without mask and feeling paranoid again!! Praying for that day to come. Fingers crossed 🤞🏼 

Until then, life goes on.


Right after submitting Law of International Trade and Finance paper,

Laila Rafaee,
10:36PM
Subang Jaya.

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