👩🏻‍🎓 Dean's List

Assalamualaikum and hi!

So today, the faculty was organising Majlis Anugerah Kecemerlangan Akademik & Ko-Kurikulum 2021, you know... It is where you can know who got dean's list (DL) (Anugerah Dekan) for last semester etc. 

A quick disclaimer, I didn't get DL. Seth did. I was so excited for Seth, and he was so happy about it ever since Semester 7 result was out. 

I don't know where this is going, and I don't know what is the purpose of this post. But I feel like expressing, and because I think I am no longer who I was.

The last time I was a top-scorer was when I enrolled in Foundation in Law. Getting GPA of 3.8 was easy, CGPA of 3.6 was nothing. And then I got into degree. Also, to make it clear, I am now in my Semester 8 (Final Semester) and Inshaa Allah I will be graduating next month. Throughout my degree journey (so far) I never got DL. 1st semester was tough, but 2nd semester was tougher. But Alhamdulillah, my CGPA started good and maintain until now. But for 7 consecutive semesters, I never got DL. Of course I dreamed to get one, at least once. So this semester, my FINAL semester is my FINAL chance to get DL.

However, I am kinda happy to be just where I am now. I am proud of Seth, and my friends who got DL. I am also happy for my own result. When I was in 1st, 2nd, and 3rd semester, I really really push myself because I want for once getting DL. I felt the pressure. Especially having my own brother in the same batch/class. But now, I just think that, getting a DL is no longer my ultimate goal. Because with DL or not, I will have to do my chambering. And not all firms pay attention to DL result. 

Also, because I feel like what's important for me is that, I understand what I'm learning. I know what I'm doing. I just want to enjoy this learning process, and not feeling pressured as if I am competing with other people. Now, I am in my own pace, in my own lane, my own dreams and my own goals.

What's important is how you see your result. Not others. And as for me, I think I'm doing academically okay. Good. Not excellent, but good. 

For this Final Semester, I think I'll stay in my lane. Still working on that DL, but no longer my priority. I am really an average student, but I'm mentally healthy. I have always told myself, ever since I started my degree. My mental health is above all. Because I was there trying and working my arse off and got dissappointed when things don't go my way. Now, I don't expect much. One thing for sure is I will literally cut anything/everything that's jeopardizing my mental. Studying gila gila, and pushing myself beyond the limit (in study) is mentally draining. I don't want to do that, anymore.

Whoever reads this and you got DL. 

CONGRATULATIONS! 🥳

Please know that you deserve that for your hard work throughout the semester. You did it! And I am proud of you!!

Doakan yang baik-baik untuk saya, awak dan kita semua.


That average law student,
Laila Rafaee,
7:55PM
Subang Jaya.

P/S: cant believe that I'm finishing my degree soon and I'll start a new chapter? AHH takut but may Allah ease everything, Aamiin. Ok and before I start my chambering please I want to cover and re-learn civil and corporate chapters because damn I want to know what's happening >.< Oh satu lagi sesiapa yang baca ni boleh tak doakan aku dapat buat civil and criminal litigation!! sebab tak minat convey huhu (nangis) okbye!!

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  1. A'tikah RusliJanuary 23, 2022 at 9:13 PM

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  2. nazifa azliFebruary 21, 2024 at 4:29 PM

    as an average law student too, reading this really comforting me. Thanks laila :')

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