Dear Readers, #HappyNewYear2024
Assalamualaikum, and hi.
It has been two years, since my last posting. Reading my last post, I was happy that I got dean’s list for my final semester. And in 2021, I was so…. in love.
Time flies, in a blink of an eye. Happy 2024, my dear readers (if any). I wish I could tell each and everything that happened in the span of two years, here. So you don’t miss out any.
Just in case you are new here, hello. My name is Tun Laila, and I will turn 26 years old this year. Nobody really reads ‘blog’ nowadays. But as someone whose dream was to become a writer since I was in highschool, I have started writing since then. Hence, this blog. It has become a place where I journal my feelings, a place where initially nobody cares. Nobody reads.
Anyway, to make it short (hopefully), I had finished law school! My brother and I did, together. Just like how we wished it to be. We graduated in August 2023, one week before my 25th birthday. We got called to the bar too! Yes, just like how I prayed, I secured a place in general (mainly criminal) litigation for my chambering. Alhamdulillah. All praise be to Allah the Almighty, my brother and I, we are both lawyers now.
If only you knew how much things progressed, and how much I have grown. There is always room for improvement, I know. But I could say that I am no longer the same person as I was, since my last post (at least). I am shy to tell you this, but... they call me an “influencer” now you know? I… can’t say the same. I was a Tealive girl, living life to the fullest as always, in my own bubble, but now an "influencer"? I remember I always call myself "influenza" and "Yoututiber" to my close friends. Making fun of those influencers and youtubers. But now, its no longer mocking. They also asked me to create a Youtube channel (for real). Which I wish I could, but I know I cannot commit. I know I want to focus building my career as a lawyer. Anyway, how did the public find me? It was not part of my plan.
“Tuah ayam nampak di kaki, tuah manusia siapa yang tahu?”
During chambering, I love to record myself going to work and to court. Because I have always dreamt a life like that. Just like how I manifested things in law school and watched it become real later? I did that too during my chambering. Somehow the video I recorded (randomly) reached the public at large and people started to follow me from there. My TikTok with 8 friends initially, now has about 560K followers. My 50 friends on Twitter, now 29K. Both of my social media grow too fast.
Scary, but worry not. I still have my personal space ie. Instagram. They asked me if I could make it public though, but… maybe not. Maybe not THAT account. Too much secrets I have shared there. So yes, this is your Tun Laila now. The girl who used to live in her own world, laughing, crying, screaming, now is still living the same, the only difference is that, there are people who are watching. Each and everything that I do. I bear that in mind, to do anything and everything, moderately.
Oh, relationship status? Afiq and I broke up. After 6 years… Some things just don’t work out (typical reason). No use of me dwelling in the past, it has been 2 years. But we broke up on good terms though, I wish he gets the happiness that he deserves, which he is getting actually! He’s getting married real soon, Inshaa Allah. I have grieved enough and I let the time do the healing. "Heartbreak handled me before I handle the heartbreak. Enough messing up with my emotions, but not with my entire life." I am single, still. Sometimes it gets lonely. But most of the time I’d rather be alone. I have faith in Him that He knows best, what is good and what is bad for me. I believe He keeps one in store, for me.
So worry not, you'll be okay, you'll be good, Laila.
Career wise? Alhamdulillah. Again, and again, praise be to the Almighty. Ever since my early days of chambering I have aimed this one particular firm. And right after I finished my chambering, I applied and I got accepted. Mind you, I secured a job offer before I finished my chambering, and before my graduation day. To be working in such a healthy environment, tolerant and kind boss, I am working under my own idol. Who could've imagined? The boss who cares about my mental wellbeing, my growth as a lawyer, and “influencer”. I am killing two birds with one stone if you asked me. Having best of both worlds. My boss is the one who supports me through both. My colleagues also know that I am on social media, they are supportive just as equal. I am….. beyond grateful for this. Oh, I was a paralegal, before my longcall day. But now Alhamdulillah, certified lawyer or they say, Legal Associate.
When I got called to the bar, I had my loved ones to come and celebrate. It was indeed a day to remember. Darwisyah slept over my house, Salsabila came super early and got us breakfast. They helped me with the attire, made sure I eat and drink before the time calls. They made sure I looked my best that day. My other friends recorded me throughout the day. Seth hired a photographer too! Literally the best one. My videographer couldn’t come though, he had high fever. My boss could not too, as she had to attend a case at Taiping, Perak. But still, I was happy. All of those who couldn’t make it to my big day, congratulated me first thing in the morning. It’s the thought that counts. I feel like I could write a different entry just for it. I am yet to post the official pictures, as I wanted to write some thoughts with it, but time is always chasing me. I will try, ASAP, though two months had passed.
Welcome to adulthood, Tun Laila. I move out. But I have my dear housemates too! The best two I could ever asked for. Anis and Nurul. My two best friends since the first semester of degree? From university students to working young adults? Also lawyers, Anis is doing mainly in civil, Nurul in conveyancing, and I am in criminal field. The most loving and furry creature God has ever created on earth, my dear friend, Latte! She’s a cat who keeps me sane. She waits for me to come home, everyday. I love her too much, slightly more than I love my own housemates…. Shhh!
If I were to be asked where I am in life now, I could say that I am at my best. I am living the life I manifested, but even better. I work my dream job, in the firm I have always wanted. I have my loved ones with me. Dear God, please always let me count my blessings. Always remind me that I am loved by many. Shower me with Your grace and mercy.
Alhamdulillah for this life, ya Allah.
That is my life update so far, there’s more but this is enough for now. Oh I had dinner with Bapak and Seth just now. New Year dinner celebration! I took them to Ole-Ole Bali. Bapak did not have the chance to be eating in that kind of places before, but I was so happy I could let him experience it. He loves it though, the food was good! Ever since I moved out, I miss Bapak a little bit more sometimes. No arguing and no hard feelings. Does Bapak miss me too? I know Bapak misses me too. But men will be men, he never really says it. Unless I made him admit. He always says that he watched my video. Well… doesn't that answer my question? I had no idea since when my Bapak is on TikTok though? But maybe that's okay. He can see me from the screen. I hope He always keep Bapak safe, for me.
And…. then I will have to prepare myself for work tomorrow. First day of working in 2024, Happy New Year, everyone. I hope that this year shapes us all to be a better version of ourselves. And all our wishes come true. For me personally, I know it is going to be tough, just like the previous years, but I believe that I am always tougher.
Off to bed now, until next time!
2:13AM
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
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