I met a girl named Najla. Salam Ramadan, 2025.

 Assalamualaikum, and hi.

I just got back from Bath Garden event at The Gardens Mall, near Mid Valley. 

I met a lot of people. Influencers, content creators and others. But this one girl who talked to me, her words lingered in my mind until now. Her name is Najla. She is a part-timer at Bath Garden, helping organizing the event. She said that she has a friend named Mai. And that Mai is a big fan of mine, she said. She also said that Mai will always (and never not) repost my videos. If Najla watched my video first before Mai reposted it, she will remind Mai. And she will summarize what I said in the video. Basically they are always talking about me.

What touched my heart was, Najla said that she is a degree student at UniKL. She said she wanted to quit studying for a few times. But she kept on telling herself to continue because she wants to be like me. She wants to be a smart woman. She looked me in the eye and said "You are the reason why I tak quit. You are the educated and smart woman that me and my friends are looking up to. Dekat UniKL tu, kalau sebut nama Tun Laila, semua orang suka". If I can be honest, this was not the first time I received such a heartwarming sentences. I received it on a daily basis, from the student themselves, or from their parents. And to date, there are students who have finished their degree, told me that they made me their motivation to finish and graduate. How big impact one could bring, just by being herself. Alhamdulillah.

Najla and I talked for a bit more and suddenly she said "Please don't think that people hate you. Ramai sangat orang suka you. Ramai sangat, sampai you tak nampak."

It touched me because she knows what I went through. Even when I have never met her, never knew her, but she follows and acknowledges the struggle. I sincerely pray that Allah ease this girl's journey, study and work. Shower her with blessings and keep her from any kind of harm, emotionally, mentally, physically and financially. This girl is working really hard yet managed to be kind to me. 

It got me thinking, if a human being can do that to me, what more is my God's mercy and blessings onto me. How we always focus on the bad part of our life which is not even a chapter, when Allah has given us a lot of blessings. And when I say a lot, I mean a lot. Human will keep on trying to find perfection, and they will never found one. At least in person. Except one; our Prophet Muhammad SAW.

Anyway, I have a public Instagram now! @beyarafaee. Like how a lot of people asked me to create a public acc, and so I did. I promised to create it, together with a Youtube channel, in case I have a longer video, I guess I'll just resort to Youtube. Funny when I looked back, I always joke to my friend how I am the Ïnfluenza and Yoututiber, years later, I am becoming one. Alhamdulillah for the support, I didn't realise that big names in the creative industry know me. They like me. It made me feel so small sometimes, which can be a good thing, to always put your feet on the ground. I make new friends with the big names, and I hope that I can still be myself with my close friends. It hurts me if I unintentionally make them feel like they're losing me. Especially my best friends. 

Someone said in my comment section ;

"Kepada Tun, I do love your contents, tapi ingat ye, sebagaimana orang mencari kebaikan dan ilmu awak, sebegitu juga akan ada yang mencari keburukan" 

And my dentist texted me "Fly high, Tun"

The first one, hits home. As my name grows higher and bigger, with huge amount of love, comes with huge and greater amount of hate. But I believe kind people win. I just need to always remember what Najla said. I have all the love and more. Complete from my strongest support system, on top of public's perception. It is more than enough. Everything is enough as long as we put our mind like it. Be grateful. With greater success, comes greater test. May Allah SWT protect me from evil, and put me in His loving hands, like always.

We are two days away from Ramadan. I realised that as we grow, we are keen to Ramadan together with Aidilfitri. I remember Ramadan 2024 vividly, I improved myself. For this year, we can only pray and work to keep on improving ourselves. My goal is to increase my iman and submitting myself to gather peace from within. And to always, always be grateful. Reminding myself that I am loved by my God. Not to reply to bad people and to watch my words when speaking and typing.

Salam Ramadan 2025, readers. I hope we have a barakah Ramadan with our loved ones, if not ourselves. 

Yours truly,
Tun Laila Tun Rafaee
12:11AM 
E, Kuala Lumpur.