lost my retainer

Assalamualaikum and hi

yes... might sounds simple to you. but its not to me. braces was the first ever thing i spent on myself. the process cost me RM7K of my own hard-earned money. its always easy for me to spend on people, but not on me. so the braces/retainer was the first EVER. the sentimental value. i lost it. its gone for good.

i cant remember how many times i misplaced the box/retainer kat kedai makan. or worse, i didnt bring the box so i'd put it in a tissue. which when i left the table i didnt notice the tissue was not rubbish. 

yesterday, i was tired, just finished working and i was starving so i had dinner with friends kat kedai. dah lewat so kedai nak tutup dah, and i was rushing nak balik. at 3 am in the morning i noticed i forgot to take back my retainer on the table. of course the shops closed. 

went there twice, look for it and couldnt find it. got the owner's number, and he said none of the staff noticed so probably dah buang. and garbage truck dah ambik sampah. so the end. 

didnt really have the choice tho kalau tak buat nanti the teeth will move so all my three years and a half of braces would go to waste. so i called the dentist and to remake the retainer takes RM700 total. 

whats saddening me most is not solely the money. just im disappointed with myself for being so careless. if i had been more careful. if i had been paying extra attention. but tah la probably i was too tired and a lot was going on my mind so it slipped away completely. 

i cried teruk gila depan bapak and seth, swollen eyes day today dari pagi (till now) just because of that. but seth belanja starbucks today. bapak and seth pujuk macam macam pun didnt change anything. totally salah sendiri. mood swing so no progress langsung on assignment. 

brb pulling myself together,
Laila Rafaee
1:21AM
Subang Jaya.

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