The Endless Path

 Assalamualaikum, and hi. I just got back from Bath Garden event at The Gardens Mall, near Mid Valley.  I met a lot of people. Influencers, content creators and others. But this one girl who talked to me, her words lingered in my mind until now. Her name is Najla. She is a part-timer at Bath Garden, helping organizing the event. She said that she has a friend named Mai. And that Mai is a big fan of mine, she said. She also said that Mai will always (and never not) repost my videos. If Najla watched my video first before Mai reposted it, she will remind Mai. And she will summarize what I said in the video. Basically they are always talking about me. What touched my heart was, Najla said that she is a degree student at UniKL. She said she wanted to quit studying for a few times. But she kept on telling herself to continue because she wants to be like me. She wants to be a smart woman. She looked me in the eye and said "You are the reason why I tak quit. You are the educated and ...

Assalamualaikum, and hi. Last Sunday, we have finished our final exam. That being said, first semester of Postgraduate of Diploma Syariah & Practice, done. Our last paper was Mal Procedure. Second toughest subject that I thought after Usul Fiqh. And true enough, those two were indeed, the toughest for most of us. But I am grateful that I decided to pursue this. Going to class every Saturday, learning about Syariah matters, kind of feels like going to usrah or some religious class every week. Our schedule was like: 8AM - 10AM : Mal Procedure. To me, it's a boring one, just about the Syariah's Courts Procedure, Parties and Proceedings. The technical.  10AM - 12PM : Islamic Family Law. Interesting! It's about engagement, nikah, divorce, wali, mutaah and all Islamic family matters.  12PM - 2PM : Islamic Judiciary System. So-so. I love it, especially the part where we learn about our Prophet Muhammad's history back then. It feels like gaining and knowing about him more. ...

Assalamualaikum and hi, It always feels foreign every time I start to write here, again. Maybe because the gap between posts are long, I was away for too long.  But hello readers. I am writing this in my court attire, in the Bilik Saksi Kanak-Kanak, Mahkamah Gua Musang, Kelantan. I should have a criminal trial at 9AM, but it got postponed to 2:30PM, hence, this writing. When I was driving, I wasn't feeling happy. Unsure why. Maybe because things are just overwhelming. Maybe because it is that time of the month. Things happened so fast, along the way there were some regrets, there were a lot of blessings. I feel like giving myself time to feel. A lot of things happened last year and this year that I wish I could put everything in this post. But first thing first!  I pursue my studies 🎓🥵📚👩🏻‍🎓 Postgraduate Syariah Studies in UiTM Shah Alam, every Saturday 8AM-9PM. And my Mandarin class every Monday at 8PM. I kind of regret taking it because I couldn’t understand Arabic. The...

Dear 🫧 This writing is supposed to only thank you for the dinner treat. But here goes what’s on my mind.  I have always known that I have so much love in me, but I have no one to give it to. A significant other. Until I found you. You want it. Thank you for wanting me to love you. Thank you for choosing me, allowing me to pour all my love that I have, to you. I feel chosen and accepted. For the longest of time, I thought I am hard to handle. Especially when everyone said that I am a strong woman. Who can live with no men. But they forget, lumrah manusia yang mempunyai keinginan hidup untuk berpasangan. Bukankah itu yang dicipta Tuhan. “Dan Kami telah ciptakan kamu berpasang-pasangan”  Surah An-Naba: 8 — Yes I am strong, and I am a whole. I don’t need a man to complete me. Because I am complete, myself. But I do need a man to complement me.  I thought I must be aware of men. Cannot let them know that you’re vulnerable. But you show me otherwise. That it is okay to trust a...

Assalamualaikum and hi. Two months have passed, and I just got the time to write. So I can recall and relive the moment.  Some day in February 2024, while I was casually waiting in front of the Immigration, Putrajaya for settling my client's case, like always, I used the time to record a video. The day before that, a case went viral for the Federal Court's decision; Nik Elin v Government of Kelantan. As someone with law background, my followers always ask me on viral cases. I usually refused to comment nor create content about it since I understand an opinion from an outsider can affect the proceeding of a case, even though you are a lawyer. At least that's what I have experienced myself as a greenhorn. But this time, I felt like I needed to discuss on the case since some people took it in the wrong way. Also because it is not an ongoing case anymore, but it has reached the final decision from the highest Malaysian court; the Federal Court.  My intention was only to straigh...

Assalamualaikum and hi.  There was this one time, I questioned God. That if you were not meant for me, then why did our path cross? Because that night, we were not supposed to meet. As I was supposed to come on another date. But some things happened, that I couldn’t come and I was scheduled a new date, with you. Then I asked God, why? Why him? And why me? Had we not met, we would not know each other’s names, nor be taking pictures. You would not know my existence, nor would you give me your number. And I would never…. ever texted you. No texting, meeting, no catching feelings.  Time flies very swiftly. Fast, but it felt right. You put the words together, and I did too. We were both excited to what our future holds. I asked you if you see me in your future, and you said yes. “I want you for a lifetime.”, you said. I hope you know that you made me feel, safe. And understood. And some other foreign feelings I could not express. You’re the easiest guy to communicate to. All this w...