The Endless Path

Assalamualaikum, hi. I just got back from Mount Ijen random trip yesterday, not really exhausted but I slept quite early at 10-ish I guess. So... YES! I got to join it, I know my latest post was about how I was sad that I didnt get to go as I didnt get permission. Thought of rebelling but yea that morning I woke up and immediately texted Seth for that. He didnt allow tho at the first place. But then, I said that I'll just stay home, not joining the other three to go shopping or whatever. I'll just stay at home, enjoying me-time. I mean, I was really okay if he said no, at least I asked so I'll never have the regret assuming. Then Seth half-heartedly said "pergi lah sana" and start bringing up the past of how I didnt send him my location when I first went lepak with Syazwan. Also he said let this be the last time I'll ask for his permission to go somewhere alone (without the other 3). I promise to stay safe and will send him my location every 8 hours. Why did...

Assalamualaikum, and hi! Something just happened and that hits me hard so I just want to write it here. Everyone, literally everyone knows that Laila has the rebellious character. Bapak denied that while I dont. I asked Bapak once and Bapak said I am a good daughter, always follows his advice and that he trusts me but little did he know that I am actually rebellious but have never got caught. I am rebellious but not to the extend where I am totally out of control. Just that I cannot imagine if I lost Bapak's trust. Laila is a person who is very VERY indecisive. Heres the thing, if I were to decide on something and I had a strong and firm stance, nobody and nothing can stop me. But if I were being indecisive, contemplating should I or should I not, I need somebody to tell me what to do. I need someone who can think things for me, and to decide on my behalf but, that person must not has any interest to the matter, you get what I mean? haihhh Lets get to the story. Syazwan invited ...

Assalamualaikum, and hi This is very awkward to start writing again... it is just the matter of time and I think now it is. I was very much a dumb person back then that I deleted many of my posts, when I shouldve just archive it lollll. I know nobody is reading this. If you happen to be someone I know, welcome to my life here. This used to be my place to rant when I cant run to twitter and those days when I dont own an instagram acc. March 2014, and its May 2019. Time really flies. I grew up. I still have the same twitter and I have an instagram acc now, but I think I would create a new acc as at this age, I am surrounded by so many toxic people, or am I the toxic one? I dont know but either way, I want to have my own space on insta, oh and twitter? The toxic people (to me) are also following me there so I might need to do some cleansing, when I have the guts. I will. I wish to have a happy life, on social media and in real life, just me, and small circle that matters. Thats it for ...

Assalamualaikum , friend is said someone who is always be with you . friendship is said to always be the biggest treasure . but when one felt a huge backstab from a friend they used to trust , would there be any value of friendship again ?  haih Ya memang dah biasa kena sebenarnya . since Ya dari asrama lagi . tapi Ya tak expect dia boleh buat macam tu dekat Ya . i mean she looks nice , sweet , cakap pun lembut . tapi mengutuk Ya dari belakang rupanya . hahahaha lesson learnt , jangan judge orang from the first impression anymore .  or maybe im the type of person who prefers to sit and discuss . bukan ke kalau ada yang tak puas hati ke apa , cakap la depan depan , at least Ya dapat tau what people think of me , kekurangan Ya and fix what should be fixed , bukannya Ya dengar dari mulut orang lain you said this and that tak puas hati dengan Ya ! orang cakap 'sebenarnya korang each other tak puas hati sesama sendiri  tau' well i guess nope . ya tak sakit hati den...

Assalamualaikum , i miss the old days when i am with you . i miss you, i miss the love from you, i miss the whole same thing about you . without you, things i love dont seem to be in place anymore . everything i do , every mistakes i make, everything i myself will open up the stories to you and now, i have to realize by myself for what have i done when it was actually you should be telling. im sorry for not being the perfect princess for you . i dont even try . i regret everything . in the past, when you were with me, i dont do things right. absurdly mad over anything . as time passes by, you left me hanging with thousand words unsaid . i have to stand look for all of them , sum everythings up and get the meanings right .life isnt a riddle for me to gamble, so i am now wandering around people and look for the key to the case you set in my head . one by one gave me the clue , Alhamdulillah bit by bit the key is now with me . the precious key ive been searching is the precious advice...