The Endless Path

Assalamualaikum and hi! The title itself, seems convincing. But I’m yet to write something that is, I know going to get a lot of disagreements. But here’s my opinion which no one asked for. (this might be a VERY long post) Semoga dijauhkan dari fikiran fikiran melayu ortodoks. Bismillah. I have known this one girl, she got into law school and is enrolling in her first semester. What triggered me was her whatsapp status. That time, the hot issue to bE DiscUsSed by everyone was regarding the Pencetus Ummah divorcing their pregnant wives. So her status was something like “I want to help these oppressed women, because I had been in their position. Not once, but twice.” My impression whilst reading: you,,, broke up with your boyfriend, bukan diceraikan suami... and I continued to read “Tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Adil, kalau kita hilang something, Allah akan gantikan dengan yang lebih baik. Macam Allah kurniakan partner I yang sekarang, yang lebih handsome, richer and tak berkira.” ...

Assalamualaikum, and hi! Done second year of law school! Seronoknya tidur tanpa tanggungjawabbb!!! But not yet, I havent gotten my sleep since I finished my last paper this morning. And I just realised I had not taken a proper meal for two days? Seharian tu makan 3 keping roti je. Stressing over studies really made me lose my appetite. Allah blessed me with good health, no gastric 💙🦋 Finished my ADR (alternative dispute resolution) paper this morning and that marks the end of my second year of law school. 4 semesters done! I have 2 years to go, that is another 4 semesters. I am so happy that I had finished this semester. Probably because its the most challenging one. 9 subjects in total. Full credit hour. Just feel like writing tonight, I went home straight after the paper, and fetch Puteri at KTM Subang and sent her to KLIA. Arrived home at 8pm. Bapak asked Seth and I to go to Ipoh. I want to, but not as fast as tomorrow... I mean, I want to sleep and rest and recover I sit too ...

"It hurts that your closest family member says that "You should do something about your snob face. Instead of that, i really hope that people would accept me for who I am." I did the "ask me anything" on instagram and I received this. Here's my view. Firstly, I am sorry that you had to encounter that. That is the meanest thing someone could ever say to you. To anyone. To me, I really don't get it why people have the audacity to comment on someone's physical. I mean, we were created by Him, the same God. He created us beautifully, fairly. Only humans like to compare this and that. Let's start from there. It is subjective, babes. One person can say your face as snob, one person can say your face is pretty. different interpretation, different view and different opinions. Its just that to me, I would never give my opinion on someone's face because umm?? Some opinion is best to be kept to yourself??? You don't go around saying things about...

Assalamualaikum, and hi! This post is going to be a long one, this has been in my draft list so long.... here’s me introducing myself. My name is Laila, I am 21 years old this year. I am astounded myself that I actually love to write since I was 16,,, 5 years ago and now I start to write again. Lets hope that I can keep this pace and be consistent to keep this blog alive okay 🥺🥺 I am a second year law student at UiTM Shah Alam. With Seth! My brother or people be mistaken us for twins.. 😂🥱🤦🏻‍♀️ Okay, trust me, I wish I can tell you what happened for the past 5 years. There were so many things I encountered, so many people I met, few that came but didnt stay but I'm looking at the positive side, I have so many things to be grateful for! ✨💫 For the past years, I enrolled in UiTM Dengkil for my law foundation studies and I got a place for degree. Along the way, I had gotten the experience of working at Food and Beverages Industry (F&B) like Subway, Baskin Robbin and Fat C...

Assalamualaikum, and hi! Today I had my criminal 1 paper done, Alhamdulillah, I did my best like I always do. It was hard but as long as I did my best I think that should suffice. I think I did okay. Ironic isn't it. When you go tell people "its okay you did your best" and she replied "I did my best, but it wasn't enough". That was me then. I am different now LOL #2020energy. So, I have 2 more papers (equity and ADR). I miss hawa, yong and anak anak, kak siti, my brothers, bapak yang kat Ipoh, dina. Everyone that has significant place in my heart. It is hard...to adapt. I am still adapting tbh. For not having my cliques around me. For studying alone. I cried yesterday and today. Tapi tak teruk k ciked ciked ajer. Maybe because I got to know my criminal carry mark isn't what I expected (yes kids when you expect high, you get disappointed deeper). Also at the same time Sir Rizal (equity lecturer) texted saying he lost my test paper?? And Afiq called whil...

Assalamualaikum, and hi!  Today's entry is from my instagram post caption. And I added sum. Bismillah. Never had I promised my tomorrows. If today is my last day, there are so many things I want to apologise for. I ask for forgiveness from each, and every single soul I've encountered throughout my whole life. I have met a lot of people, and to whom this may concern, to whoever knows my name, to everyone I’ve talked to, I hope you will read this, once I'm gone from this world.  If we were friends online, thank you for trying to keep in touch with me. Trust me when I say “I hope we’re friends forever”. I totally mean it. But I’ve been at my lowest self state, I’ve been in a very toxic environment for quite some time, that I tend to push people away,  including those who cared about me. I don't know why did I do that. Paranoid. Selfish. Probably. I' m sorry. I'm sorry for not providing at least, a reason. I'm sorry I left you hanging. You did no harm. Even...