The Endless Path

Assalamualaikum, and hi! Day 42 of Movement Control Order (MCO). Hari ke 42 Perintah Kawalan Pergerakan (PKP). Ramadhan Kareem to all Muslims. I hope youre in a pink of health, bestowed under His blessings and mercy 💙 The world is facing a pandemic, covid-19. A contagious and deadly virus started at the end of 2019. Malaysia is enforcing MCO for two weeks initially, because the symptoms of the virus can be identified after 14 days in human's body. But the government is extending the MCO for few times now, for good reasons. MCO is not a lockdown, get the difference. People can still move, to go out and get groceries done. Essential services is also allowed to open, but controlled. Limited from time to time. One person per family to go out to buy things. #StayatHome #SocialDistancing How are you doing?  I am with Seth, my brother at home. Just us. Bapak is at Ipoh with Dina, and my other brothers and sisters are everywhere all around world. Keeping them in my prayer each time...

today i went to work with swollen eyes. sebab banyak sangat menangis semalam. nasib baik la semalam seth ada marah jugak, boleh la jadi alasan orang tanya kenapa mata sembap. that was not the first time, tak ingat dah berapa kali menangis sebab sedihkan benda yang sama. cuma semalam kebetulan dia text time tengah breakdown. irsyad: aku as lelaki, kalau betul perempuan seksi macam tu memang kawan aku, aku like je la kot gambar dia. tapi aku memang takkan comment la. jonas: i wont like the sexy girls pictures even kawan saya because i know amanda wouldnt like me do that. i respect her and i know if i like sexy girl’s pictures, she will feel insecure about herself more. i dont want her to feel that way. kalau saya nampak post macam tu saya scroll through je. i wont like, comment pun tak akan. what is your own true definition of happiness? i hope you find it. i guess i am not it. for 3 years, did i not make you happy enough to have your eyes only on me. because if i made you happy...

Assalamualaikum, Today, 31st January 2020. I just got home from work at Tealive, shoot straight from Putrajaya Court, my internship place. Punch out from court at 5PM, punch in at Tealive at 6PM to 11PM. I’m tired, of everything but I signed up for it 😞 I had my lunch at 1PM and I haven’t eaten since then. My body needs a rest I know, my mind needs peace. My heart needs a mend. But neither of it gets anything. Today, I am done with my second week of internship, I have 3 weeks more before my class starts. Today, tonight, at this hour, it marks one week of, we stopped talking. I am still sad. I am still mad. Faham tak rasa macam hati kau rasa sesak. Macam kena tekan. That kind of hurt. This still hurts. I swear it still does. He still wishes me good night and good morning but, I have no power to start a conversation again. We just left it hanging. I don’t know if I can go any further, I feel powerless. Rasa dibodohkan. Rasa sia sia. Marah. I want this to stop. Rasa macam taknak ada ka...

Assalamualaikum and hi! The title itself, seems convincing. But I’m yet to write something that is, I know going to get a lot of disagreements. But here’s my opinion which no one asked for. (this might be a VERY long post) Semoga dijauhkan dari fikiran fikiran melayu ortodoks. Bismillah. I have known this one girl, she got into law school and is enrolling in her first semester. What triggered me was her whatsapp status. That time, the hot issue to bE DiscUsSed by everyone was regarding the Pencetus Ummah divorcing their pregnant wives. So her status was something like “I want to help these oppressed women, because I had been in their position. Not once, but twice.” My impression whilst reading: you,,, broke up with your boyfriend, bukan diceraikan suami... and I continued to read “Tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Adil, kalau kita hilang something, Allah akan gantikan dengan yang lebih baik. Macam Allah kurniakan partner I yang sekarang, yang lebih handsome, richer and tak berkira.” ...

Assalamualaikum, and hi! Done second year of law school! Seronoknya tidur tanpa tanggungjawabbb!!! But not yet, I havent gotten my sleep since I finished my last paper this morning. And I just realised I had not taken a proper meal for two days? Seharian tu makan 3 keping roti je. Stressing over studies really made me lose my appetite. Allah blessed me with good health, no gastric 💙🦋 Finished my ADR (alternative dispute resolution) paper this morning and that marks the end of my second year of law school. 4 semesters done! I have 2 years to go, that is another 4 semesters. I am so happy that I had finished this semester. Probably because its the most challenging one. 9 subjects in total. Full credit hour. Just feel like writing tonight, I went home straight after the paper, and fetch Puteri at KTM Subang and sent her to KLIA. Arrived home at 8pm. Bapak asked Seth and I to go to Ipoh. I want to, but not as fast as tomorrow... I mean, I want to sleep and rest and recover I sit too ...

"It hurts that your closest family member says that "You should do something about your snob face. Instead of that, i really hope that people would accept me for who I am." I did the "ask me anything" on instagram and I received this. Here's my view. Firstly, I am sorry that you had to encounter that. That is the meanest thing someone could ever say to you. To anyone. To me, I really don't get it why people have the audacity to comment on someone's physical. I mean, we were created by Him, the same God. He created us beautifully, fairly. Only humans like to compare this and that. Let's start from there. It is subjective, babes. One person can say your face as snob, one person can say your face is pretty. different interpretation, different view and different opinions. Its just that to me, I would never give my opinion on someone's face because umm?? Some opinion is best to be kept to yourself??? You don't go around saying things about...

Assalamualaikum, and hi! This post is going to be a long one, this has been in my draft list so long.... here’s me introducing myself. My name is Laila, I am 21 years old this year. I am astounded myself that I actually love to write since I was 16,,, 5 years ago and now I start to write again. Lets hope that I can keep this pace and be consistent to keep this blog alive okay 🥺🥺 I am a second year law student at UiTM Shah Alam. With Seth! My brother or people be mistaken us for twins.. 😂🥱🤦🏻‍♀️ Okay, trust me, I wish I can tell you what happened for the past 5 years. There were so many things I encountered, so many people I met, few that came but didnt stay but I'm looking at the positive side, I have so many things to be grateful for! ✨💫 For the past years, I enrolled in UiTM Dengkil for my law foundation studies and I got a place for degree. Along the way, I had gotten the experience of working at Food and Beverages Industry (F&B) like Subway, Baskin Robbin and Fat C...